I have to confess. I am a habitual liar; I lie to myself quite frequently. I lie to myself in times of procrastination that there is still time for things to be done when in fact time is slipping away. I lie to myself that I am feeling alright although I am overwhelmed with emotions. I lie to myself that I am good in my perceived strengths when in reality I am still a long way from it. I lie to myself that I am inferior and weak, dependent on others when in reality I can stand firm on my two feet if I want to. My lies become who I perceived myself to be when I believed in them. I even gave my lies a name, I called it rationalization.
I need to stop. I need to stop lying.